Én Hazám (My Homeland)
2022 | digital media
Words | blog, thoughts, poetry
Prisoners of War
In the war at home, I honor the sanctity of grief. My grief. Their grief. Your grief. Our grief.
Antidepressants, Withdrawal, and Other Scary Stories
Tricks and Treats for Getting Off Antidepressants
(not-medical advice from not-a-doctor)
Happy Tickaversary - Year 6: Re-Mission
What remission from chronic Lyme is NOT is a sudden restoration to 100% health. A new life is here. And there’s no road map. Now what?
Remember Me
If I am to remember God's love in my darkest times, I would ask Him to remember what it's like to grieve so hard you drown the whole world.
Happy Tickaversary - Year 5: The Weight and the Waste
I’m in a new territory – the “Remission Purgatory” as I call it. A space in between sick and healthy.
Child Soldier: Where Did I Get this Gun?
They didn't wound me. They simply exposed and drew attention to it. They pulled the trigger, but the gun was already there.
The First-and-a-Half Commandment
Hating yourself will literally destroy your brain and body with illness. Hating your self will destroy your view of God and love for others
When God Shows Up
If I want to heal, know God, and be restored sevenfold, what should I expect but a whirlwind? When God sends a plague, it sets people free.
I in Christmas
This year, I learned that keeping the Christ in Christmas is not nearly so important... as keeping the I in Christ.
It's Not A Wall, It's A Door
2020 | assemblage | 75" x 35" x 9"
Cellular Biology
2020 | installation | medical paraphernalia | 24" x 69" x 45"
Happy Tickaversary - Year 4
I can’t believe it’s “only” been 4 years since the “Summer of the Ticks.” It seems like a lifetime ago. In many ways it was – I am a...
Advent 2019: Waiting for The Cure
To those with Lyme, depression, or grief at Christmas: You are not damaged. You are not a Grinch. You are the very embodiment of Christmas
And the Tick Ran Away with the Spoons
Understanding Spoon Theory is really important for others to understand the Lymie way of life.
God of Spoons - The Wasted Days
We are human BEINGS, not human DOINGS | "Henceforth I resolve to regard these as God’s signal that I am to stop and listen." -Frank Laubach
God of POTS - The Wasted Days, Part 2
We are human BEINGS, not human DOINGS | God is in charge of my "Wasted Days." He's doing the work. I can BE... in my pain, in my sorrow.
Happy Tickaversary - Year 3
People think of recovery as tomorrow being better than yesterday, every day, every week, a little stronger. But Lyme-MSIDS recovery, like th
A Tale of Two Lymies
This article was originally written while I still identified as an Evangelical, struggling with judgment and condemnation surrounding my...
Recommended Reading: "The Hiding Place" by Corrie ten Boom
(warning: blessed spoilers) All excerpts from "The Hiding Place" by Corrie ten Boom with John and Elizabeth Sherrill; 1971. There is an...
Me Too... No More.
Why do we shrug off our bodies telling us that SOMETHING IS WRONG? We no longer view feeling unwell as a problem... and its killing us.
Happy Tickaversary! Year 2
Instead of lamenting the weekend I found the tick that changed it all, I will celebrate surviving thus far!
Job's Daughter - Part 2: Back to Job
There is a time to break down. There is a time to weep. There is a time to mourn. There is a time to be silent. Take it, and have peace.
Job's Daughter - Thoughts on Dying Young
I need to realize the self-fulfilled purpose of merely existing. I was created. I lived. He was glorified. It is finished.
The Tattoo
Somewhere out there is a young woman whose life has just been derailed by Lyme, unsure if life is still worth living. For her, I write.